"be yourself...no one else wants the job"

I have been busy lately and there is much potential for growth in my business (according to my friend/accountant;)....but I don't want to make a great expansion....great expansions come at great cost :S I want to make good decisions but good decisions often need good reasoning and lots of good advice.We all can get easily misguided by people who may seem wise.I have to consider so many things before I make any serious moves for expansion.I am quite happy with what I have now and I am in my comfort zone.....I do take risks, but only calculated risks :P I have found something special, a person I can be myself around.....and feel so relaxed with :D I am glad I have such a close friend! Anyway, my gardening has been pushed to the background....but I had a dream about my carrots last night...freeaky! I was there with my friends wife(I know this seems strange but we were all friends until he broke the rule we had and married another one of our friends..we were pretty close) she is still fun to be around. So there I was in a FIELD of carrots.I started pulling my carrots out and they were so tiny....feelings of disappointment filled my soul :( I was truly disheartened....but then I had an idea to transplant them...so away we went transplanting the carrots...hmm...could this be a way that plants communicate with their owners? CARROTS: please Fila...transplant us! we need to be moved...we need more space..your moms flowers are suffocating us....hurry, or else we will shrink and become so tiny, it would make you cry!:P FILA: okay little fellas, lets put you somewhere free :) GO the carrots! YAY!! haha so ends the story of the farmer boy and his silly little carrots :P will update soon with pics if I do decide to do the transplant :)

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I've been very happily going along with my life....just "free falling" my way through....I have had bad days but I just keep moving coz...every day has it's own worries,so I just worry about each day, and consider my goals for my future...a balanced view of life makes me happy :) I am working out a lot more...Yeah Silvie...I get tense sometimes :P I am usually a happy camper though....I have made so many new friends and got to know a few old friends:) I got an email from my Aunt, she is in Hawaii...asking for my Dad's email addy...she was so happy to receive a reply from me :) I am very focussed now....I have been working really hard, trying to solve some of the most mind-boggling IT problems around. I had to call the Techies at www.kidanet.com.fj their email server was down and it affected most of my customers...you won't believe how frustrating it is to be unable to help them since it was an ISP problem...I called the ISP and liased with them...they need backup servers for mission critical email systems...the other option is to host my own email server for my customers...I always strive to take care of them! I love working with some of my customers...even on a personal level, they are good people....I would work for free...coz I love my job..but nothing in this world is free :( If the world was run in LOVE currency, it would be a much better place :D

"The future is a myth created by insurance salesmen!"

The future is something I am deeply concerned about, not just my future but those I care about....my brothers future looks pretty grim, and I want to help him make good decisions...like some of my friends he has a different attitude towards his future...my future is full of hope as I keep working on myself, trying to improve every aspect of my life.....and my personality. It is certainly not easy but I keep trying :) true, I can never become perfect :P but I will bloody well try! lol....I had been going out on "dates" as someone liked to call it, with girls I am close to....they are good company, funny :P but I realize that I don't really enjoy being around people who don't respect my views and don't have the same outlook on life as I do. I did not choose my companions too well....but I only realized this later on.Then there are my really good buddies :) they're the best....I enjoy their company because they understand my values,and my standards. It is true that they do not share my values or standards but I am glad that they respect them :) I have been working out, exercising my core (abdominal muscles) with great results I must say....it makes me want to work harder :P but I only exercise to relieve a certain tension....and to take a break from the crazy world that surrounds me. I want to try doing walks, either in the morning or afternoon..there are so many people who do that here.....It's a great way to meet people :D but I just don't have the energy for that :( not in the afternoon at least....I haven't had time for my language stuff....just the Norwegian language..which I only learn when my I chat with my Norwegian friend...pressure helps people to learn :P hahaha....let me rephrase..."pressure helps lazy people to work hard" :D that's an original Fila quote :)


PS: Carrots still growing! w00t!

"If you can't learn to do it well, learn to enjoy doing it badly"

I had a full day yesterday, worked my crazy behind off.....had 2 appointments at very close intervals...so close that I had to cancel the first one, one BIG email issue, and lunch with LN....had to meet a girl too(my ex-close friend :P) then had to see my brother coz I had a friend working for their company.....she was lonely without me...haha no, she just wanted me to be around coz she is new in that place...and I knew everyone(I already did introductions, what more do you want? :P) but, if I had not been busy I would have stayed with her :) get my travel stuff done.....it was so chaotic in my mind yesterday...I need a secretary :P but it is dangerous, statistics show that most bosses end up in office relationships (or affairs) with their secretaries...lol. Lets put that idea in the "not gonna work for me" basket! Anyway, there is nothing a secretary can do that I can't....right? hmmmmm....okay maybe I could go with a male secretary.....eeeeeww no way! The thought of all the male secretaries I know just flashed before my eyes....and it is NOT a pretty sight :P there is a voice inside me at this point thats screaming..."YOU CAN DO IT!" and I'm like.....nah, I can't even organize a meal...yes, unfortunately, I can't cook,even if I were starving...mom always said. There is food all around you and you're starving? haha.....I would die in a world of food if it's not cooked :P that's why I have new found respect for raw vegetables :D haha....cheers WILSON :P you're welcome.....keep your PC safe from dust monsters and get yourself that UPS system man,regards to the Mrs and the little cutie :)

"not out of the woods yet...."

I have been so busy lately, focussing my excess energy and time into helping my friends and saving up to see my sister :) I bought a new Hard Drive 250GB Serial ATA drive, to store my prison break episodes and my heroes :P this was the most comprehensive upgrade this year on my system....I accidentally wiped my boot drive :( lost all my pics.....including ones of blondie ;) I also lost some major data for my business.....it was a HUGE mess but I'm recovering what I can now......I still haven't got my travel stuff done, but a friend of mine told me I should do it quickly....so today I will be going to do my bookings. I am glad this drive is working so well, superfast :D and 250GB space is so much! I just hope my other hardware (which is about 3 years old) doesn't fail on me. Anyway, everything is happening so fast now for me, I have so many wonderful new people in my life :) and I am thankful for my old friends, they've stuck by me through my most difficult times :) I am truly blessed!

"an act of compassion and kindness" :)

Yesterday it was pouring....we had the worst rain in a while,it had been an unusually dry,wet season this year.I was crossing the street in the middle of the city with my umbrella when I noticed that there were these three girls staring at me....smiling and giggling away.Was there something on my shirt,on my face? lol...no, they wanted my umbrella....haha...although I didn't immediately pick that up :P I was busy coz I had M's computer to work on but I just stopped and looked at these three girls shivering in the rain...I felt so mushy inside...I smiled and asked if they would like to cross the street under my umbrella...they were delighted and so I took 2 of them first and made my way back across the street and left them under the shelter of one of the buildings then slowly made my way back....to pick up the other girl who felt a litte left out :( hehe....as I was crossing back I realized that there were other people who were waiting out the rain too on the otherside...watching me,as I took the time out to help these three girls out cross the street :) I was only too happy and they were too! They kept thanking me......I just smiled at them with a BIG "you're welcome" smile :D This is one of those picture perfect moments in my life!! I have many moments that touch my life and build my life....they are don't happen very often.I will always treasure this one:)

"when the rain begins to fall,you are the sunshine in my life"

I am back at it....back at blog,blog,blog..lol.....instead of taking all my problems sitting down, I am facing the things I fear most...."face your fears,live your dreams" yeah it's a sports logo or something.....but I think I am actually progressing instead of regressing into a sorrowful state...thanks to my beautiful and wonderful new friend,her words always give me comfort and keep my spirits high :) thanks S.....I will ask if I can put her name up later....I may not be in contact with her often....but just enough to keep me going and to be positive and look to the future, when we will be neighbors ;) @S: "I will borrow your sugar okay?" It's as sure as the hope that I have that things will be better....I have more work scheduled for Monday....I need to rest more coz...I'm more active these days.The weeds in my garden are overgrown...but it's nothing I can't fix....weedkiller on hand :P the weeds look much better than the carrots..lol pics later :)

"You'll learn something everyday...if you're not careful."

most times we learn by making mistakes...by doing things the wrong way until someone shows us the right way....I learned so much yesterday....about myself and about others. Whatever we learn, we need to apply in our lives....and always stay positive. Whatever decisions we make, we need to stick to them.I would consider myself a person with principles,but lately I had lost all sense of them!:(....I know that my principles are beneficial for me! As hard as they are to follow, I do follow them with the view of something better. I have been avoiding the heartache involved in making the tough calls...deciding the BIG decisions in my life. I know that this is my weakness but I keep trying to work at it. I hope that I can realize the joy that is received from "sticking to my guns" to my principles no matter how hard or inconvenient they are! I am happy that I have the support of my friends and my family and that there are people who understand my principles and even more who accept them :) Today I may have lost 2 friends just because I was trying to apply myself to my standards...but I gained a good friend who truly understands me and knows what I am going through....who appreciates the spiritual person inside me..that is all I ever wanted! :)

Home Sweet Home! :)

I am finally home.....I miss the sunshine though, on my way here I was on a bus and they played "free Willy,the movie...then as the movie was about to end, the girl behind me said "free Willy 2" sure enough,the second movie was "free Willy 2" we laughed ourselves silly :P I thought they were locals but she said she is from Suva....we got off but I didn't get her name....I will run into her soon enough,Suva is a small place :) I got a call from my contractor, he told me that I have been "cordially invited" to a cocktail party :D by this chic I met, she was giving me looks ;) hehe.....funny, thing is, I don't think they invited the guy I did the job for, I mean I only saw her once....something Kathy suggested really got me thinking....but nah, no one is secretly interested in me....even if they were I'm not worth it :P I went to see my best friend K at the office, she was working late so I got her some lunch which just made so happy!(so happy she said she loved me as a friend :P) I also FINALLY met her bf....H who didn't seem as pleased to meet me :( Anyway we had a good time talking....I am happy to be back home,where the internet is fast and convenient...and I can stay up late chatting to my friends :P

"I've got one foot in yesterday and one foot in tomorrow,which explains why I'm legless today"

I have such a joyful attitude...I have accomplished so much and I know I will accomplish much more :) I am happy that my dad is leaving for work in Liberia...yes, I know, what a thing to be happy about, Oh, if you only everyone knew what it is like to be me :P I am happy because, he is first of all..opposed to my preaching work...and he never likes mom going out(like that's ever stopped her..hehe). I will miss him though, no question about that....but I would not be too sad or upset, because I know he should be back next year. I wish him well, I know he wanted to do this last service for the Force before he retires, so I have no objections to his aspirations and I respect the fact that he has provided for me all these years...he is not that bad a dad when I come to think of it...he is a good man :) I don't harbor resentment or hate him for his bad and sometimes, totally blunt and tactless advice..lol :) I am happy for him because I know this is something he wants to do....and it's for my family and his dad back home on my island. I will be going to the airport this week then to the sunny West :D I will be out of touch with the world for a while...so not much on this blog...but I will pre-post my other blog...because it is more important! "My life may be falling to pieces but,amazingly,the pieces seem to be falling in the right place" :) LN will laugh at that one....he knows I make my own quotes...hehe. I will leave my carrots for a while but, they seem to be doing well on their own...if only kids were the same :P I hope to see those lovely twins again sometime and call my two best friends... I miss her heaps, I have to work my a** off if I am going to see my sister later this year, and I have been so busy.....but yeah,this is relaxing for me.........just BLOGGING :) blog..blog,blog blog...errr...blog blog...blog :) have a blogoed dag :P

"Total strangers need love too,and I'm stranger than most"

My carrots are flourishing! :) It has been a beautiful week for me....I love the western side of my island, the tourists are nice :P I would live there if I had a home there.The environment is natural, the hotels are>>WOW!!!<<<> :P I feel more confident these days, I know that my life will be good, as long as I keep everything in their place- my family, my friends, my job,my first love, my second love, my spiritual health, my physical health. Oh yeah, and my mental health is okay too :P (Not necessarily in the listed order)I have another job in the Western side of the main island...gonna I love working there...just not too keen on the travelling..it takes about 4hours to get there...I could fly there in less than an hour but it costs so much. I will just take the scenic route :) I love seeing the mountains and the valleys...I also have a strange fascination with twins :P I think it's freaky and kinda cool that someone actually shares your DNA...interesting....a little weird, but still interesting :P I missed my new best friend while I was away...and Kathy too :) I had the best time chatting to her the other day :) I will try to give them a call sometime. I have been busy with work and with all these little changes in my schedule and my life. I just want everything to be good :) I didn't have much time to work on my Espanol and my Nederlands but I will soon, Anyway, another thing that I'm happy about is the growth of my carrots :) Just as I promised here are the pics :D >>>>>>>>>>>>>

A special attachment :)

Me and Uncle Ronnie :P
Work is done but I don't want to go home :( I will leave tomorrow but I know I'll be back :) I visited uncle Ronnie in Nadi (v)......it's a beautiful town.HOTEL Central.....everywhere you turn there are tourists and hotels....there is a certain buzz in the air! People are so friendly here...it's no wonder tourists love Fiji :) I had so much fun at the airport playing with the automated water dispensers(taps to the ordinary people :P) I miss my home coz the internet is faster and more reliable there...I miss my family but I love this place...I could actually see myself setting up shop here and living here :)

a new environment

I sent a message to my new best friend,letting her know that I was leaving....I had a good time traveling on the tourist bus....J and I were on our way to the airport,she was leaving to Samoa to watch the SPG and see her bf. I am now in Lautoka...miles away from the comfort of my home....working...and having a great time sight seeing in a place that is mostly new to me :) I miss K and her friend E, who is going to Canada for her brother's wedding...maybe she will meet Kathy? who knows....I enjoyed watching Fiji beat Samoa winning the Gold medal in Rugby! GO FIJI! and those Tahitian VB players....I have to finish a few more installations and then go back home.....I love my job :) I miss my carrots though, I will get back to see them this afternoon or tomorrow....I got paid and I wanna hit the town and see what's selling in sugar city!...cherio:)