I can read your poker face

Have you ever woke up with a feeling that you KNOW EVERYTHING! I woke up this morning, and I just knew everything....I just had a deep awareness of everything around me. It was definitely a moment of heightened self awareness! I just knew what was going to happen to me before it happened.I really thought I was going crazy so I googled it to see if anyone else had ever felt this feeling....the results were unsatisfying and very commercial just like everything else in this crazy world.I did,however find some interesting things when I typed "why do I feel like I know everything" into the google search box.I found an article on google.It helped me to realize my feelings for Ayla-Jane is somewhat childish...similar to something that happens to the 7th grader asking about love.I also realize that if I really wanted to love somebody, I would need to spend an incredible amount of time getting to know them. I really want to get to know her, I realized that I was jealous of her ex-boyfriend.This weirdness and madness led me to take myself away from the situation so that I can look at it without my emotions getting in the way. I think that I have been acting childish and it is time for me to take some drastic action. While I told her that I want to distance myself from her......but I'll be back, as I usually am :) I just need some time to figure out what is going on with my emotions.I also know that I can be happy during this "alone" time :) It has been a crazy crazy time for me....but I am glad that I have found this very special person....she does make me really happy.I know she loves her ex and that is perhaps the most real and the most reliable feeling in her life right now! There is uncertainty and doubt in her heart and mind about who I am because the honest truth is, she doesn't KNOW me! I am happy that I have come to this point in my life. Yes I only feel like I know everything, I know that I don't..lol no one does,only God! I am going to get back to my usual routines, and if she wants to be with me....she knows where to find me! :) I love you Ayla-Jane! Listening to Only God knows why by Kid Rock....

How to fall in love with someone in 3 days!! Part 3

I went for my interview today!!WOOOHOOO!! nailed it! I was all dressed up and very excited..had this funny feeling in my tummy......hmm..no it wasn't butterflies like I thought..lol...it turned out to be some bad chicken I had last nite :P Oh well, I was late and so instead of being interviewed by the technical guy I was interviewed by the manager of the company...and it went so well, he said I have the right attitude...and he showed me around the office already...I got to check out the products and learn more about the company Hi-tech Supplies. I had a great time talking to the big boss man :P I really felt relaxed....I was cooler than I thought I'd be...not much nerves..just bad chicken..lol

I also had a good day with diwali sweets in the morning.....I am super happy these days..just floating on my little invisible cloud! :D

Anyhoo, my part 3, I called Ayla-Jane to confirm some details and we confirmed them all night....lol so much to talk about but yeah, she suggested I call this post "love drunk" but I think I wasn't love drunk until I saw her on the 4th day.....when she took me home ;)

I'm calling this one.....

I KNOW!!!..

Our second day started just as she finished work....she'd send me a text message letting me know that she has finished work and I'd call her back and we start talking straight away....we talk and talk this time more about ourselves....small details about our past, present and possible future (together) I felt so intense that night......we both got really into our moments, we read into our "not kissing" we knew that it would have changed things....which is true, if I had kissed her at the mall it would have really changed the outcome of our situation. We knew each others thoughts so well by now...almost everything I said,she KNEW and almost everything she said...I already knew..it was sooooo freaky and yet so wonderful to be on the exact same page...on the same level mentally and spiritually and emotionally. She was the first girl to make me cry from deep down inside me! I don't remember how it all started but we just said a moment where we KNEW how we felt....and she just started crying...and I started crying with her and I remember saying I love you!! then she said "I love you!"......and then we both let all that emotion out through the tears that were pouring out of our eyes....I felt her tears, I felt her emotion....and then she just said "God,I'm so glad you didn't tell me through text (sms)!! LOL...then we both stopped crying and burst out laughing!! it was such and LOL moment :D and we were still crying....So freakishly insane and yet so wonderfully amazing!! and I tell her how amazing it feels and she says "I KNOW" and the rest of the night we keep talking until we get tired and I kiss her goodnite over the phone and she falls asleep :) 

And, this is the rushed version.....coz I'm really tired now, its after 11pm.....time to catch some good z's!

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