"Never let the facts get in the way of a good argument"

I've had crappy days,weeks,months and even years.....but they'll be there for me...when the rain starts to pour.....they'll be there for me....like they've been there before.....yeah the people I call my friends:) and a very special friend has been with me throughout this time :) Well I am feeling better these days but now one of my friends is dealing with some heartbreak issues :( it seems like a season of heartbreak for my girlfriend(thats my friend who happens to be a girl..hehe) She has been a good friend to me and now I just feel I need to be there for her. The world throws at us so many things and we just love to catch the good stuff but we also get a lot of crap and bad things...we don't like but I guess we need to deal with it coz it makes us stronger people :)

Thats a pic of moms gerbera...so beautiful:) my carrots can be seen on the bottom right hand corner....well...there is only one or two remaining now :( but......with beautiful flowers like this....it's no wonder mom pulled my carrots out :P

it all started with a headache!

Today I really do have to see a doctor.....I am sick...depressed and just can't seem to shake this all round "lousy" feeling :( I think it has to do with the work I've been doing....I've been working so hard to become a better person.....and the moment I stop trying....I lose myself, my identity as a Christian hangs in by a thread! What really bothers me is how much work I stand to lose if I let myself stay in this deplorable state....my efforts to be a better person seems futile against my tendency to be "bad" to be just like all the "bad boys" out there.....I used to be sickened by people like that....but hanging around more girls who love bad boys...I just wanna show off I guess....congratulations man! you are now a fully fledged idiot :) I don't know how I got into this mess(so I keep saying) but I know deep inside me that I chose this and now I have to deal with it. The choices we make can affect others around us.....but it will greatly affect us, because we are the ones making the decision. I had my mom try to help me...my gf tried to help me too....but I fear that their efforts have been in vain :( This cloud of doom and emotional uncertainty now hangs over my head once again. I know of only one place that can comfort me....and only 1 person in the universe that can give me the strength and wisdom needed to pull myself out of this hole I have dug myself into!

"I'm not overweight, I'm chocolate enriched "

I had the biggest headache EVER! yesterday.....it hurt so bad I had to stay in bed...to deal with the pain:( It was sooo sudden that I had planned and made arrangements to be at work at 9:30am but......at around 9am I started feeling a knife in my head....it hurt like hell.....but me, being a man :P I just brushed it off...yeah RIGHT! it turned me into a wuss :P lol.....I was immobilized by this nuisance...I couldn't work, I couldn't even chat to my friends :( I was stuck at home so...>I didn't meet M......I am feeling a bit better today....I went to see a doctor :P and this is my sick sheet:)
yep...thats my doctor...lol!