"On a night like this"

WARNING: THIS POST CONTAINS SOME MILD SEXUAL REFERENCES THAT MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR ALL READERS!

Well thanks for waiting Anonymous girl ;) yeah, I've been busy with my final assessment.....I had been so pre-occupied with my girlfriend issues that i realized it affected my studies.....she has been such a selfish b*$&h lately and I have decided that don't want to keep shovelling her shit anymore! I am so pissed off at her....she needs to grow up! I'm better off waiting around for someone who is actually worth all my trouble. I still care about her and I still love her but....things have changed,she is being very childish.....I can hear the many "I SO YOU TOLD's" coming in right now....yeah yeah, okay fine you're all right! BUT she will come around I know it.....its all my fault for choosing a 17 year old as a girlfriend....she will be eighteen soon...she probably knows how I feel right now.....I could feel her anger and jealousy on the phone....our last conversation ended with "I LOVE YOU" but those words were laced with pain and jealousy from both sides......I do miss her but I already made her my choice...its all up to her now! I have faith that she will eventually make the right choice....she is a good person and I know she loves me....but she is very confused right now......it is confusing me :P

1 night with a sexy panda

We sat at the bus stop drunk with love...or probably drunk with BK cheese....I can still taste the fat in those things.....yuck! WE LOVE FAT! haha....its yummy yuck full of goodness :P

Well our night at the bus stop went on and on and on......we talked about what we wanted in our relationship and we also talked about our break up.....how we were going to break up.....so weird, what couple talks about a break up when they meet for the second time??? We knew we were going to break up and we also knew we'd get back together...we didn't know just how right we were gonna be!! she let me touch her in a special place...our make out session was getting very intense.....then a bunch of kids walked by, they must have been watching us for some time now and as they went right by us...one of the guys dropped his pants to reveal his scrawny little white a** then they all walked away laughing.....bunch of idiots! haha...we thought it was amusing but we didn't care....we were in our own little worlds :) she was so uncertain...about her feelings....maybe because we had never felt anything this intense.....I remember how she kept saying that I wouldn't like to see her without her makeup on.....we stood up and started making out.....that was super hot for me.....then she said that the buses didn't go at this time...somewhere after 11am....so I say in a very  casual voice...."so whats going to happen now?" but I had already known she was gonna take me home tonite...lol and she knew it too...she said "I'm not letting you sleep at a bus stop" So...uhm....off we went :) I was supersmiley.....but at the same time I had a very firm voice in my head telling me that I am not going to do anything but sleep...just sleep with her :) She was pretty special and I don't want to ruin things with her...we both knew that sex would ruin us....but little did I know that it wasn't literal sex.......it was just the notion of wanting someone else....but anyway, the walk to her home was exciting coz it was all new to me....we walked past the bench where she cried on the phone with me...then I sat there as if to put myself in her shoes....and see what she would have seen.....then we got to her door....and she opened up her home...it was messy but I didn't care....as long as I could rest my dizzy head....I was really love drunk....I felt like the whole thing was a dream...until she kissed me.....and hey, that was soo real :) haha...it was intense.....we couldn't keep our hands off each other....but she hit the shower.....while I explored her crib :) tried to get a feel of her....she didn't like me to go in her room...so I stayed out in her living room.....chilling on her couch....waiting for her to get into the bathroom.....we were still making out like crazy then when she finally got inside the bathroom...the light wasn't working....so she had to trust me enough and leave the bathroom door open to let the kitchen light shine through......I was tempted to peek at her but I don't like betraying anyone's trust in me...because I know how bad that feels....I sat on the couch and contemplated how I got to this...being with the girl I just met 3 days ago....being with the girl I've always dreamed about....in her house....WOW! she got out of the shower and had a suspicion that i peeked...but i didn't so she went into her room to change...she didn't want me in her room coz it was messy....understandable :) She got dressed.....in track pants and a warm long sleeved turtleneck black top and grey trackies.....she still looked great :) I prefer her looking casual..it makes her more real to me....I would also have loved to see her without her makeup but.....she wasn't ready to show me her face without makeup. I was already lying on the couch waiting for her to lie with me.....she took her damn time...lol she loved being a tease......so finally she turned out the light then she lay on top of me...and I kissed her passionately then...she lay on my side...while she looked at me....we could still see each other in the dark...and she put snuggled up close and put my left leg between her legs....she was on fire!! haha.....and we started kissing and talking then kissing again...we talked about how unbelievable our relationship has been...3 days......being so in love...how we are so connected to each other.....I really enjoyed how her hands would wander all over my body and my face....almost so naturally....I never noticed it...but I just felt it :) our kisses became more intense....I could feel her legs sqeeze....so we'd stop and take a breather...then go back to talking.....my hands started to wander.....and lol...so unaturally obvious, i moved my hand slowly down her shoulders...onto her soft ass...then up to her lovely tits.....then she slapped my hand and said "oi what are you doing?" LOL!! damn, couldn't sneak that one by....haha she was so alert....damnit! haha....and she wouldn't let me touch her boobies.....until I later calmed down and told her that I really wanted to out of curiousity....I had felt boobs before but these were.......soooo sensational...that I just felt they were fake....I mean...they were SO REAL! but....too good to be true!! they were perfectly round....well shaped....it was almost unrealistic feeling them up...although I didn't get turned on by this...weird, it was more like a curious thing not a horny guy feel......hmm...so I tell her that they were so nice....mmm.....I miss them :( I miss her too..lol but yeah thats all part of her package.....so yeah we talk about her past.....my past.....we talk about our future together and then she says....she loves me and that she is my futurewife and she falls asleep in my arms....or hmm...I think I was the one who went out first...lol.....too love drunk, I coma'd lol.......well I woke up with her...feeling so good....as if we really did do it! lol....I really had that whole "top of the morning" feeling :D haha......she was sooo happy too.....we were so happy that we made it through our first nite together without any sex :) I am so proud of her for stopping me a couple of times during the night....but I wouldn't have done it anyway, I know I'm a really strong guy when it comes to saying no :) she went to the bathroom to shower again.....I went in after then I got out got...took a crap....but forgot to flush (something that would come back to bite me in the bum later on)got dressed made our bed.....then made hot chocolate and used the left over milk....then she comes out and asks me, why I didn't tell her that her mascarra was runny! lol....she looked like a PANDA :) she was my sexy panda....and I loved her even with runny mascarra...lol silly panda.....we keep talking and her sister walks in and catches us with hot chocolate.....finds my crap in her potty,finds out we drank all the milk.....and is outraged just by everything else (coz Ayla-Jane didn't tell her where she was last night....she was with me) she wanted to kick my ass...i know it..lol I NOW KNOW HOW GOLDIELOCKS felt..lol :P and the big bear was soo unhappy! Ayla-Jane got told off.....then she came back to me....i felt VERY unwelcome so I said....I'm gonna go.....and we did eventually leave.....I walked her to work.......feeling such a sad goodbye feeling.....we get to her store...then we hold each other really tight then...let go and I kiss her and tell her I love her...and then....goodbye :( It hurt to be away from her.....but I was happy I found her :) So....yeah, we still talk to each other....but this was our story..how we met.....our status now is slightly more complicated though...but I think of these 4 days as our wonder moments ^__^ the best night of my life.....and our special moment :) I love her soo much!

My spanish word for today....SEXY PANDA LOL!! its not spanish but its still a word :P

how to fall in love with someone even more...in 4 days...yes there is more :P

Well,first off I would like to say sorry to sketches....I will add your subscription on your new email :) no, this isn't spam.....I miss you....but yeah I did something crazy....I gave her my blog address....so I know that my lovely panda is reading this ;) hi...you...uhm....friend :P

Back to my delayed coverage.....on our 4th day of KNOWING each other....I knew I had to see her....and she knew that she had to see me...or else..uhm...we'd die..yep, we'd just fall apart and stop living....maybe not literally but at least metaphorically :P I had been dreaming and wishing for this moment since.....I told her I loved her....so I call this one...hmm I'm kinda torn between 2 titles...

When our worlds collide : A journey into the unknown mysteries inside us ( in simple terms...what happens when we see each other :P) and be careful what you wish for...hmmm...okay the better bet is....drum roll :P

Be careful what you wish for:

Our forth day was perhaps the most exciting physically for both of us,or maybe just one of us...ME :P hmmm..no way, she felt it too! I know it,anyway, I talk to her then I text her the usual "I love you" and THEN I just write "cya" instead of bye or talk to you later or whatever.....so that really made me think....coz I didn't really mean to txt that,it just happened and I didn't even give much thought to it...>I wasn't even thinking I would go to see her....BUT!!! lol I went :D 

I couldn't contain such excitement inside me, I just knew I had to see her......so there I were :P I mean I was......just thinking about going up to Albany...a place that is stranger to me than mars.....or venus for that matter, I had this deep feeling inside me telling me that I had to go and that I had to see her,hold her,kiss her and be with her.....call it whatever it is you want to...but I had this feeling inside of me...I was intoxicated by her love..it made me sooo crazy :) I loved every moment of not knowing what to do next...every moment of not being able to predict the future...to have no clue what would happen next :)

A really good friend of mine offered to help me get to the right place :) thanks AZ....we left after class.....took the bus, this is where he gave me advice and told me about how women here in New Zealand are ;) its a total generalization and I never liked how people classified other people...although it was a natural thing to do, I just don't believe that what he said was true about almost all the women here.......while he did admit that the women here are well formed ;) physically, they are naturally beautiful and they have beautiful,great looking bodies....wonderfully shaped breasts....and lovely behinds, I didn't want to pay too much attention to the physical,since it is a shallow way to look at women. Anyway, I always believed that personality was more important than anything else.....I still do, but how the men are here....just makes me lose heart :( 

They guys here (this is MY generalization..lol) don't appreciate the women as much as they deserve to be appreciated, I think they are like that because there are so many beautiful women in New Zealand....so they tend to just move on.....and they're always looking for something better- an attitude that is very catchy....I feel it too, but I choose to be a decent guy. I know I always have a choice and so I try to make the right choice. I recently had my friend go through a really heartbreaking situation and he called me in the middle of the night....hey man, LN hang in there brass.....you'll pull through. We all have our issues......my issues seem to be as thin as tissues (copyright T-bag :P) I am really enjoying the ride with my current "friend" I feel so close to her and yet so far......she is a wonderful person and I truly do love her with all my heart but I know that she is still so young and she wants to grow up....and she needs to grow up.....my friend has a similar situation,however he is choosing to deal with it in a different way. 

Well, for all the 5 people who are just dying to know what happened on our forth night.....let me continue.....I went down to her store.....her workplace.....I found it, out of the many stores in that mall....I narrowed things down...like the stalker that I am inside..lol :P I walked to the door of the Jeans West and there was this beautiful woman standing at the counter.....I really thought she wasn't her, so I looked around to see if there was anyone else around.......I looked to the back where the changing rooms and then I saw her smile......so uhm...becoz i wasn't sure I smiled back and just hoped that she was the Ayla-Jane I had been craving so much! :) she was....she smiled and walked up to me....and hugged me...it was such an overwhelming feeling, but as a guy, I couldn't give that away :P so I sorta did that, weird hug....by tapping her back.....and rolling my eyes.....and looking around at all the people at the store who had stopped to watch our spectacle :P I felt a little embarrassed but totally happy.....I knew this woman so much that I didn't even hesitate to hold her and feel her body against mine....oh it was sooo good ;) we held on to each other a little longer than we should have....but I felt her hands exploring my body in a very sexual way, that was a little unsettling for me coz I am not used to girls doing that to me but I let it happen coz its her! :P

She was all over the place, I could sense that she didn't have much control over herself becoz I was around...she was so smiley and I had tried so hard to contain my smiley faces......I just was a typical macho macho man :P that was a silly thing for me to do but it was just a natural guy mechanism. She came over to me and pretended to show me some jeans for guys.....although we both knew I wasn't interested in the jeans on the shelf...I was more interested in her short black skirt.....she looked so glamorous and so hot! mmmm....I still have that memory of her playing over and over in my crazy head!....she took me to the changing rooms in the back to show me this bag (which I had pretended to be interested in :P) we wanted to kiss each other so much...it became such an obvious notion....people could just see the love and desire in our eyes, how we looked at each other :) she sat me down in the back and looked straight into my eyes......it made me feel nervous and shy....so I started looking at everything else but her beautiful eyes :) I noticed how she licked her lips and she kept saying.....so and paused briefly and then smiling, she would look deep into my eyes......and I could see how high she was........that made me even higher....we were so absorbed in each other.....her tongue kept rubbing her lips, as if to keep them glossed with her anticipation...I loved how they shined and seemingly asked for my lips to touch hers....but when I lean in towards her she stops me with a finger on my lips *(this was hot too....lol ) I stop and she looks behind me...so I turn to see what she is looking at, it is an elderly woman that walked in to change....so I get embarrassed and I just act all casual....but she didn't seem at all unsettled by this woman....she just keeps saying "not here" and I agree, although I would love to have a hot makeout session with her in a "changing room" mmmm...the idea was so hot but we both knew it was not how we wanted our first kiss......so we didn't...but we kept thinking about it...I left her to get back to work and she said for me to wait up for her......and I really felt that I should just go home coz I was a looong way from home but i was sooo happy with my installation stations....I was happy as a guy could be, by I couldn't help but think how it was for my friends and family and friend family back home...kisses...x I'm cool now, but if you wanna know what this is all about msg me....kisses.xxxxx

lol....i "coma'd" writing the above stuff...just fell asleep.....too much tequilla will killya :P I can't believe how I don't miss my family as much as I thought I would....which is so weird, coz I always thought I'd be a homesick puppy.....but hey, everything happens for a reason :) Our first kiss was at BK lol.....and it was the most incredible feeling ever.....it was just a moment that had to happen the way it happened.....we were talking about how we'd have different levels or steps of knowing each other and I said that step 3 would be....us,finally showing our love to each other physically.....so she asked me in the most innocent way (although she already knew :P) "sooo...uhm...whats step 2??? I stepped 2'd her so good after that ;) ..lol my eyes were open when I was kissing her coz I was more afraid of BK staff...lol but I still felt all her emotion in one kiss....she expressed so much desire and so much love and pleasure with just one kiss....then she wanted more but I was....shy! I didn't like being in public......and she just couldn't care less...I loved how much she wanted me.....no other woman in my life has ever wanted me so much :) but I didn't really want her because she wanted me (I am a weirdo....lol) and I think she could sense and it made her want me even more.....soooo.....she moved over to my seat and it was awkward coz she was beside me.....and I was still acting all shy..lol, then, she gets on top of me sits on my lap and faces me.......this was hott!! we make out like 2 crazy people....crazy for each other ;)

We also spend time talking....so it wasn't all about kissing that night,I loved her personality......she was such a deep thinker, just like me :) she is very smart, very funny...."crack up" her favorite funny phrase....from the way she kissed me I knew she was a sensual person...we keep talking and then she says the we are gonna break up.....I know that at some point in our relationship I will break up with this very intense and amazing woman.....but I also knew that we would find each other again.....what we have goes beyond any "love" that ANYONE has ever felt! but that made it dangerous....I get all nervous coz BK is sooo well lit...lol,even though I enjoyed kissing her so much.....a little voice in my head was saying-"what if someone sees us?" She felt this so she asked me if I wanted to go outside.....smooth :P we then went "some place quiet" more private.....so we could make out better....lol and TALK of cos....we love talking too.....we walk outside holding each other.....it was the most wonderful feeling I have ever felt.....I found her so intoxicating,so contagious,so lovable....so delicious.....I just couldn't snap out of my wonderworld!!! ^__^ 

We walked and talked until we got to a bus stop (yes our bus stop love has certainly flourished :P) We sat down and talked about how strange it was that we were sitting at the bus stop......

and thats all I'm writing today..coz I am tired...but I will continue when I have time....

my spanish word for today is : parada de autobús :)

How to fall in love with someone in 3 days!! Part 3

I went for my interview today!!WOOOHOOO!! nailed it! I was all dressed up and very excited..had this funny feeling in my tummy......hmm..no it wasn't butterflies like I thought..lol...it turned out to be some bad chicken I had last nite :P Oh well, I was late and so instead of being interviewed by the technical guy I was interviewed by the manager of the company...and it went so well, he said I have the right attitude...and he showed me around the office already...I got to check out the products and learn more about the company Hi-tech Supplies. I had a great time talking to the big boss man :P I really felt relaxed....I was cooler than I thought I'd be...not much nerves..just bad chicken..lol

I also had a good day with diwali sweets in the morning.....I am super happy these days..just floating on my little invisible cloud! :D

Anyhoo, my part 3, I called Ayla-Jane to confirm some details and we confirmed them all night....lol so much to talk about but yeah, she suggested I call this post "love drunk" but I think I wasn't love drunk until I saw her on the 4th day.....when she took me home ;)

I'm calling this one.....

I KNOW!!!..

Our second day started just as she finished work....she'd send me a text message letting me know that she has finished work and I'd call her back and we start talking straight away....we talk and talk this time more about ourselves....small details about our past, present and possible future (together) I felt so intense that night......we both got really into our moments, we read into our "not kissing" we knew that it would have changed things....which is true, if I had kissed her at the mall it would have really changed the outcome of our situation. We knew each others thoughts so well by now...almost everything I said,she KNEW and almost everything she said...I already knew..it was sooooo freaky and yet so wonderful to be on the exact same page...on the same level mentally and spiritually and emotionally. She was the first girl to make me cry from deep down inside me! I don't remember how it all started but we just said a moment where we KNEW how we felt....and she just started crying...and I started crying with her and I remember saying I love you!! then she said "I love you!"......and then we both let all that emotion out through the tears that were pouring out of our eyes....I felt her tears, I felt her emotion....and then she just said "God,I'm so glad you didn't tell me through text (sms)!! LOL...then we both stopped crying and burst out laughing!! it was such and LOL moment :D and we were still crying....So freakishly insane and yet so wonderfully amazing!! and I tell her how amazing it feels and she says "I KNOW" and the rest of the night we keep talking until we get tired and I kiss her goodnite over the phone and she falls asleep :) 

And, this is the rushed version.....coz I'm really tired now, its after 11pm.....time to catch some good z's!

Cheers...thanks for reading and I lost 1 subscriber today :( sorry about that sketch......for whatever reason, I would understand. Thanks for reading anyway...cheers :)

How to fall in love with someone in 3 days!! Part 2

Thanks for the comments guys...and uhm..anonymous...girl ;) lol....I got a call from my old boss (great guy!) he wanted me to come back and work with him..I mean FOR him...he really respects me and trusts me. I don't think I could ever feel so comfortable and secure working for anyone else. I've been so happy lately even though things haven't really gone the way that I've planned...my week has been full of wonderful little things that adds up to make my life so crappy but beautiful at the same time :) you just gotta love your crappy life! lol

Here is the day 2 part...I'm calling it-

The things that matter:

I don't usually ask for phone numbers but yeah....I do realize that once you HAVE a hot girls' phone number...uhm YOU CALL IT! lol...I was nervous about calling this woman that has by now, entered every good part of my my mind! I call her to hear her now very familiar voice...it gave me comfort and pleasure just to hear her breathe.....but of cos, I tried to hide my excitement by acting like this was an everyday thing....yep yep, I meet hot girls at the bus stop,take them to work,get their number and call them...everyday..lol! I wish :P

Well, there we were still talking about how we met! How everything in our lives were just going wrong,how we felt we were just falling apart....how we were just looking for something deeper,something more fulfilling....something that can make us happy.....We sort of skipped the small talk....at this point I didn't even know her second name....coz I didn't even feel that it mattered. I found out her age....she is 17 years old (freaked me out a bit) yeah, I'm going out with a 17 year old....MOM! yeah, I'd totally break my poor mom's heart if I told her about Ayla-Janes age! But, did I care? nope...that was the dangerous thing with how we felt about each other, NOTHING ELSE SEEMED TO MATTER! -this....to me,seems a little nuts! I always care...I always pay attention to the people around me...hmm...Anyway,we talked about our crazy one-in-a-million collision with each other, how I only just moved back in with my sister and I usually just walk to school and I wouldn't be in the city if not for that fact and how she was just assigned to work at the Saint Lukes Mall only that day! how we found each other, what our ideals were in terms of a partner. Then we start really KNOWING each other, we talk about things and we realize we know that we both feel the exact same thing about whatever we talked about. We talked about each other and we just knew we loved each other.....then I just told her, that I wanted to kiss her back at the mall, and she said she knew and she wanted me to kiss her too! :D that was the most amazing thing to hear.....I felt relief and such crazy butterflies! I asked her if she trusted me and she said YES and she asked me the same and I said YES (sounds like a wedding to me :P) then the rest was a blur and I just knew I found my soulmate....the one person in the world that really gets ME! and I know that I get her too....we just click....we click,snap and lock-trademark..lol :)

I felt that feeling you get when you meet an old friend that you  haven't seen in ages! I felt like I've known her all my life....but at the same time, I was scared at how this was all going.....by the way, while this was happening I had no real sense of time....I spoke to her until late into the night then we said that we had to go (again...that was bullshit,we could talk forever!...and a day :) we talked about things that made us feel happy and things that made us feel insecure...it was like a deeper level of the first day we met. We fell asleep..I think she went out first...but yeah, we left our phones on and fell asleep....I was awakened by her alarm in the morning :) I would have loved to spend a night just sleeping with her.....I was wishing for this so much! I felt such a need to be with her that I was thinking of the many ways to get to Albany. She woke up and said: hi babe! :) it was the sweetest most delicious thing I've ever heard.......what a way to start your day :) She got ready for work......did her makeup, did her hair -put me on speaker..lol got dressed......I just felt so connected to her, I felt so great with her....she made me feel on top of the world!

I talked to her as she walked to work......then she said again..I really have to go.....then she was late to work again...silly gal :P 

Everything happened so fast....I'm a little hazy on the details...I'll need to talk to her and find out.....she writes too...so I hope she wrote something....coz I was too high on life to remember the details..lol 

anyway these pics are from my great week in Auckland City :)

This guy was sooo cool :) he was like a statue and he played the part so well :) I didn't have much cash on me though....but i gave him all the coins I had :) he deserves it...

Shiver me timbers! lol...he had an ipod playing piraty music.....loved it :)

This was a rare sight...a white pidgeon....maybe he flew into some white paint?? hmm...I just thought this isn't something you'd see everyday...so here is whitey for ya ;)

Auckland City is really beautiful.......it makes me feel so small though :P

* I may need to confirm some of the details in my story with her....so uhm...yeah for the above story...it was something like that :P

How to fall in love with someone in 3 days!! part 1

Big greets to my newest subscriber lightlights.....hii :) Wilson-the pass is in the subscriber newsletter....just put your email in the subscribe box and my guy who waits up all day and night for new subscribers...will send you an email with a username and password..below is one of the reasons why I've been out of blog action for a while....another reason: My sister has no broadband....I've orderd a connection but it would take 14 days at the most..according to my ISP orcon.

On Friday 3rd October, I met the most beautiful woman in the world!!! I just knew that my life long search for “the one” had ended. I woke up on this day feeling so great, as I usually would if it was going to be an awesome day, everything seemed like it was going my way, firstly, I was on time to catch the 7.35am bus to the train station-I’m usually late so I thought I’ll make a huge effort to get to class on time and my efforts would be appreciated, for other people in my class to make it to class early it wasn’t a big deal but for me to get to class on time, everyone looks at me like it is some kind of miracle….I think that is sooo crazy!!

Anyway, this is how my day sorta went :

I get to the train station and I catch the train,just like any other day except this day I caught the 7.50 train which would get me to Britomart before 8.45 where I can catch the connecting train west to my college. When I got to Britomart I decided to go street level and walk to M4 and catch the bus, thinking it would save me the walk from the train station to my college. I also liked walking topside coz I love observing the morning rush and the beautiful women…I got the usual…..very lovely and very interesting!! I got the bus stop and I just stood there pretending to look at bus schedule pasted on the stop….when I heard a voice ask me if I wanted to sit down…….I didn’t really want to sit down but she had this glow about her and her smile was so inviting…I was just unable to say no! I sat down and I started asking her if she was catching the bus (of cos she is,why else would she be sitting unaccompanied at a bus stop?) because she didn’t strike me as the type of girl who would catch the bus…she had lovely white boots on…a very classy top (can’t really remember but seems like a bright color…..yummy:) and the hottest pair of jeans I’ve seen (although I didn’t stare at it too much) we started just talking about life and what we want….what most people are like and what we are like and how different we are……I  have never had a conversation that was so absorbing, so interesting and so enjoyable…..I almost didn’t want the bus to come!! She had this really sexy laugh….that really made me feel at ease. I don’t know anyone who could actually open up so much in just a few seconds…she seemed so relaxed and so confident, I started to wonder what her deal was….lol yeah, you don’t just laugh so openly with a total stranger….but she made me laugh too….really laugh!!! Hahaha….I think it was her contagious and totally infectious laugh…..We talked about life and about bus stops and about our lives….what we do, what we used to do, how we made changes in our lives…how she moved and how I moved here to New Zealand and we both had reasons for being the way we are! :)

She was not sure how to get to work, she worked at a fashionable jeans outlet but she had been asked to work in the retail store close to where I was studying…..I offered to take her there because I know that area really well….we got off the bus, still talking about so many things that affect us and things that affect the people around us…the way some people are and some theories as to why they are and what we want…some things about what we’ve been through, what we enjoy doing…what we don’t really like. We didn’t make small talk, we immediately connected on a social level…I felt like I already knew her….I was really enjoying her energy (and she had so much of it!! It could take you to the moon and back)…she had reached the deeper person inside me(yes I have a very deep side to me )…..so quickly and so effectively that I was absolutely certain that there was something special about her!!  Anyway we get to the shopping mall still talking about the many things in her life and mine..her phone rings so we walk into a shoe store and she answers there....she starts talking then she finishes,hangs up and appologizes...then we keep talking (I don't even remember what we talked about..I was in lala land :) I couldn't stop staring at her.....she realizes that she is already late so she decides that its too late to go into to work now so she suggested we sit down at a nearby table and talk....we both sit down but we're staring at each other..making connections....feeling so damn crazy! I loved her blonde hair and bright eyes.....we talked about people...ideals....she was checking the time...and she was late again....but I realized how important her job is to her...so I walked her back to the store where she worked...we stopped outside the store where she worked...and as I stared deep into her eyes I knew she was special. I knew that I would hate myself if I didn't get her number, I also knew I would get her number. I then said the silliest line "this is the part where I ask you for your number" and she looked at me and gave me this smile that I knew came from deep inside her, I felt such reassurance of her feelings right then. We exchanged numbers and we both spelt each others names wrong. She corrected her name "Ayla-Jane" it has become the most beautiful name in the world to me :) We knew we had to leave because we had our "things to do" but we also knew that we didn't want to leave.....she gave me a feeling that was so intense that I knew if I left her I wouldn't feel as amazing!! =) I had to be the tough guy so I said the classic "we should really go" we agreed (that was so fake..lol) she was standing there and I was standing there paused for a moment....I contemplated hugging her and kissing her....but my body just froze and I didn't feel right doing it,I just looked at her one last time and said goodbye......

no words English or Spanish could describe this amazing connection we have :D

"Am I all alone?? is anybody out there hearing my song??"

My Friday was soooo boring, I felt so lonely in my tiny room, I was going mad...so I decided to check up on this girl who gave me her number a week ago.....a decision I definitely don't regret :) She is fun and so is her sister and their friend!! I had a blast! :D We went for a walk in the park...and we raided the kiddies playground..haha we even ran for elections :P 

I really enjoyed the company, I also really needed it, my boredom was killing me.I made some great new friends and I got to have lunch and dinner and I'm looking forward to more food and wonderful company soon :) thats if I haven't already worn out my welcome...lol

I've been online a while now and I've had something unexpectedly weird happening to me....people are people are emailing me :P I've received really great responses to my work and my writing not that many but just enough to keep me writing happily :) I have only 3 more unit standards left until I graduate so...I'm just buzzing with excitement :) I had my first taste of some great "grey goose" as well....ace always told me that was yummy,and it was....it is french vodka....totally delicious :) a very classy drink,wonderful clarity and flavor!! So yeah, I'm so glad I was rescued from my boredom by three wonderful girls....I am leaving tomorrow so I have a big going away party...my sister is coming over with some drinks!! yeeehaaa! :P   I've been having fun at my place...soo much fun you can't imagine the boredom I face when it is all over...lol it's kinda like a relationship (so I heard :P) you have ups and downs....so today is a down thats why I decided to write..it keeps my mind occupied and somewhat distracted, or should I say focussed? well whatever it is...I'm not that bored :)

I haven't had spoken to my spanish friend lately so I don't really know what I will put as my spanish word for today...but I think I'll use one of the lines she told me to use.I am planning to go to California next year...so I'm looking forward to a great year next year :) my friend who lives upstairs married a guy from the US, they're separated and she has one kid, she is really nice and she says I can visit her when she goes back. She tells me all the wonders of the land of the brave and free....so I'm seriously thinking of checking America out...yes,i bet its a great place....but I have to see for myself :)

Spanish word for today: Caliente - muy caliente ;) haha...laters! :D

Villains-The Second Coming

The much anticipated 3rd season of heroes has begun~~ I was hmm...sorry I just got distracted by an email message notification that said "you have just received and email from admin@viagra.com" damn spammers are working harder than most people! grrrr.....anyway I was looking forward to some new heroes with cooler powers....and I saw the superfast flash girl on the preview....so I'm expected alot from this season. Anyway there aren't any spoilers here, I suggest you just wait to watch it...I've caught season 4 of Prison Break and I'm looking forward to my walk-in job interview with the bar manager tomorrow...so I have to rest up today. 

that means cutting this short...

Enjoy..

spanish word for today : feliz :D 

SCYLLA

I have been watching a fair bit of television lately...staying in my dark little room,chatting to strange people....lol and having the two wonderful ladies upstairs make me lunch and dinner. They're awesome! :) WS you're the best! They always invite me up to their room for a "feed" yes, you will find that the kiwi's refer to a meal as a "feed" I wonder if that has anything to do with all the sheep in this country? Anyway, today I had some spicy lamb curry and rice.....Delicioso! Yes Cieart I do know that "Dulce" means sweet in spanish but I don't think I'm that sweet...lol I'm just an average joe and I work hard at trying to be a better man, however, in my current environment, I've just become your typical guy, unfortunately! I am eagerly awaiting class tomorrow because my friends told me that I was the only one who passed our assessment (yeah right!) Since when was I some kinda genius??? I'll have to check with my lecturer tomorrow. I am also asking about the internship program they have on offer. Things are kinda fast paced here, I am also moving back in with my sister until the end of my course because my mom is said so :P Yep, she did....she is "worried" about me here, personally, I think I'm okay but she is concerned about my slow drift into the party lifestyle that she thought I left behind in Fiji.....I thought I did too, it only takes a hot blonde(chica) to reactivate my "guy switch" then, I am disappointed, this will bring an end to my possible lucrative career as a bartender...lol nah! I realized that I love computers more than anyone in my class...I have a passion for computers and technology, most of the time I speek geek (thanks acethepain) people just don't get me! 

Oooh Ooooh today in America Heroes returns for a 3rd season!!! WOOOAAH! yeaaah baby!! haha....wait, that would be tomorrow for you peeps in the US of A! :)

My spanish word for today: Americano (yeah quite boring..this is coffee not americans...lol)

LAC Meeting 2008 - Computing

I had been appointed to the Local Advisory Comittee for my schools Computer Science Faculty, I was very nervous because I had no idea what I was supposed to do....now I know, its not much, you just eat free food and drink free wine and talk to CEO's who have been invited. Second motions to change the programs offered in the school...not much! I was amazed at how well I spoke and I was more than honored to represent all the Computer Science students in my school :)

I met the CEO of vadacom a company that is looking to promote open source technologies....I found this guys opinions very helpful and insightful. I also got the chance to meet our IT Manager and he was talking about an offer for internships. I am certainly interested in making my mark in the IT industry...I believe that I have a long way to go here in New Zealand. I also had a chance to talk to our receptionist-my sunshine in the morning :) She is the first face I see when I come in every morning.....always floating her contagious smile.....she was such a sweetheart, packed the leftover food for me to take home....or maybe she thought I was a charity case..lol either way I was more than happy to accept anything she had to offer. Everyone said the meeting was very productive. I am looking forward to graduating and hitting the industry with all my skills. I also went back to this bar close by to check whether that offer was still available. I need to work so I can keep paying my rent, I've been pretty broke lately...no joke :P The bar manager said I can come and see her again on Tuesday during the day....she wants to talk to me, its probably like an interview. I didn't really wanna work at a bar but...at this point I am pretty desperate for cash, I do almost anything...well,almost haha!

My spanish word for today is: Dulce      haha....thanks Carmen ;) "eres un amor,dulce" I still don't know if it is true!

"The battle for our tomorrow,starts today"

WARNING:POSSIBLE TERMINATOR SARAH CHRONICLES SPOILER!


Come with me if you wanna live! My favorite show is on Season 2, I finally am kissing my boredom goodbye with something to come home too (always something to come home to- Fiji TV's slogan..dunno if they're still using it) This new season comes with a new intro and also a very dramatic first episode really gets me worked up.I actually cried, for two very silly reasons...lol

1. I really missed the show and I didn't want robots to rule the world!
2. I thought that was the end of the hot terminator chic :(

and it was so silly coz robots would never reach a point of singularity, I doubt that it would come to that....and if the hot terminator chic died....the show would have nothing to show, it would be called, the humans vs the machines.

Oops! for a brief moment my private server had been open publicly due to some administration i had to carry out...hope nobody saw that :P

Anyway the links to download Season 2 Episode 1 of Terminator Sarah Connor Chronicles may be found here: Please subscribe using the subscribe button on the top right hand corner with a valid email (no anonymous subscribers) to receive the passwords to my private server. I am currently working on a layout scheme for a new page called downloads, until then, it looks kinda crude.

Spanish word for today : hasta la vista baby! lol....I know its more than one..but hey its cool :)


You're too hot to die ;) and also too metalic...haha

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I went out again on Friday night....I've had crazy nights out, but this has gotta be the wildest night out ever! I really gotta do something about my party lifestyle.....I got up to some really crazy stuff on Friday, but I didn't remember until today, I was slowly filling in the blanks in my memory. I remembered some things that I probably should forget...lol

I got kicked out of a club, and this was one of the easiest clubs to get into...lmao! My friends had a good laugh that night....the guy at the door had something against me, I think.....it was weird, I went to see the club owner and he let me in again.....then this guy pulled me out again for reasons totally unknown to me, this time I didn't bother complaining, I think he was pissed off that I went over his head....but I didn't care too much about that, I was too happy! :) I also met a spanish chic but her name escapes me right now :( so does her number......sucky!

She said that I was sweet in spanish, actually she called me candy..lol but I don't know, her friend was really nice, I was on fire that night!! haha, I only knew that I had so much fun :) BUT I wouldn't do that EVER again....it really was unlike me, I am trying to figure out why my actions have been out of whack lately, and I think I know, I'm pretty lonely out here.....I mean I've tried to be open minded about the culture and the lifestyle here but I think I am a little too into it, I'm losing myself in all this......I want to be myself again but that requires something to commit myself to, a cause, a purpose so to speak....I have lost my real purpose, but I have had great grades, I checked my results online and I have straight A's for a change, it looks very weird to me...lol but I am happy with my efforts :)

I am very committed to my studies but I still feel like I am lacking something important :( I feel crappy now, I feel like a beer :P I am going to save up for a trip to watch Fiji play in the Wellington 7's :) I hope we kick some Kiwi butt...haha Congratulations to NZ anyway for winning their 6th Tri-Nations title in 7 years! :)

My spanish word for today : Caramelo ;) thats new and hot....haha

"what is the collective noun for a group of nuts??-an Asylum"

My Dad is coming home...yay! like me, he is just counting the days until he reaches home,but unlike me he gets to airport hop to Amsterdam...AAAAAAAAhhh! Accra and Korea then reach the beautiful international airport in Nadi, Fiji Islands! He emailed me and told me all about it..as if to get me so jealous :P I have always wanted to even just fly through Amsterdam or A'dam (as some people love to write..when they're too lazy to spell it out in full..lol) I also got some great advice last week about my love life from a very well meaning friend :) my fashiondiva thanks for helping me see some light at the end of my narrowminded tunnel :P You're amazing!

I also got a phone call from another long time buddy and he also advised me...or more like slapped me on the back of the head :P lmao! thanks Allen, you know I'm just a sucker for blondes sometimes! haha...and I'm glad they're women..lol

I've enjoyed a fair bit of social activity the past few weeks, I am also going to be promoting my school in the local daily....not local here, local Fiji, so I've been told by my two favorite education consultants back home :) they will also use my pictures in presentations all over the country, sounds really neat but.....I won't get paid :( she talked me into it,lol anyway I love my school :D


My spanish word for today is : Aeropuerto

"writing in brackets can (not) be ignored"

Today I had nothing much to do so I logged into the dreaded facebook. Pretty scary if you are not one of those socialnet freaks. I had a great time chatting to C and I managed to upload some new pics. I started thinking about how we miss the little things in life and sometimes the seemingly insignificant things...and those things that you forgot about ages ago.....or those people :P I had friend requests from a lot of blasts from my past....I don't like having so many friends it makes me look popular, which I totally am not. I'd like to think that I keep a low profile and anyway the friends that do matter are not usually on facebook. I keep my friends really close to me...almost as close as my family....I was also very emotional today.....I don't have any spanish words for today coz I just don't feel like it.

I sooo need a girlfriend :P

okay okay, spanish word for today : novia :)