"On a night like this"

WARNING: THIS POST CONTAINS SOME MILD SEXUAL REFERENCES THAT MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR ALL READERS!

Well thanks for waiting Anonymous girl ;) yeah, I've been busy with my final assessment.....I had been so pre-occupied with my girlfriend issues that i realized it affected my studies.....she has been such a selfish b*$&h lately and I have decided that don't want to keep shovelling her shit anymore! I am so pissed off at her....she needs to grow up! I'm better off waiting around for someone who is actually worth all my trouble. I still care about her and I still love her but....things have changed,she is being very childish.....I can hear the many "I SO YOU TOLD's" coming in right now....yeah yeah, okay fine you're all right! BUT she will come around I know it.....its all my fault for choosing a 17 year old as a girlfriend....she will be eighteen soon...she probably knows how I feel right now.....I could feel her anger and jealousy on the phone....our last conversation ended with "I LOVE YOU" but those words were laced with pain and jealousy from both sides......I do miss her but I already made her my choice...its all up to her now! I have faith that she will eventually make the right choice....she is a good person and I know she loves me....but she is very confused right now......it is confusing me :P

1 night with a sexy panda

We sat at the bus stop drunk with love...or probably drunk with BK cheese....I can still taste the fat in those things.....yuck! WE LOVE FAT! haha....its yummy yuck full of goodness :P

Well our night at the bus stop went on and on and on......we talked about what we wanted in our relationship and we also talked about our break up.....how we were going to break up.....so weird, what couple talks about a break up when they meet for the second time??? We knew we were going to break up and we also knew we'd get back together...we didn't know just how right we were gonna be!! she let me touch her in a special place...our make out session was getting very intense.....then a bunch of kids walked by, they must have been watching us for some time now and as they went right by us...one of the guys dropped his pants to reveal his scrawny little white a** then they all walked away laughing.....bunch of idiots! haha...we thought it was amusing but we didn't care....we were in our own little worlds :) she was so uncertain...about her feelings....maybe because we had never felt anything this intense.....I remember how she kept saying that I wouldn't like to see her without her makeup on.....we stood up and started making out.....that was super hot for me.....then she said that the buses didn't go at this time...somewhere after 11am....so I say in a very  casual voice...."so whats going to happen now?" but I had already known she was gonna take me home tonite...lol and she knew it too...she said "I'm not letting you sleep at a bus stop" So...uhm....off we went :) I was supersmiley.....but at the same time I had a very firm voice in my head telling me that I am not going to do anything but sleep...just sleep with her :) She was pretty special and I don't want to ruin things with her...we both knew that sex would ruin us....but little did I know that it wasn't literal sex.......it was just the notion of wanting someone else....but anyway, the walk to her home was exciting coz it was all new to me....we walked past the bench where she cried on the phone with me...then I sat there as if to put myself in her shoes....and see what she would have seen.....then we got to her door....and she opened up her home...it was messy but I didn't care....as long as I could rest my dizzy head....I was really love drunk....I felt like the whole thing was a dream...until she kissed me.....and hey, that was soo real :) haha...it was intense.....we couldn't keep our hands off each other....but she hit the shower.....while I explored her crib :) tried to get a feel of her....she didn't like me to go in her room...so I stayed out in her living room.....chilling on her couch....waiting for her to get into the bathroom.....we were still making out like crazy then when she finally got inside the bathroom...the light wasn't working....so she had to trust me enough and leave the bathroom door open to let the kitchen light shine through......I was tempted to peek at her but I don't like betraying anyone's trust in me...because I know how bad that feels....I sat on the couch and contemplated how I got to this...being with the girl I just met 3 days ago....being with the girl I've always dreamed about....in her house....WOW! she got out of the shower and had a suspicion that i peeked...but i didn't so she went into her room to change...she didn't want me in her room coz it was messy....understandable :) She got dressed.....in track pants and a warm long sleeved turtleneck black top and grey trackies.....she still looked great :) I prefer her looking casual..it makes her more real to me....I would also have loved to see her without her makeup but.....she wasn't ready to show me her face without makeup. I was already lying on the couch waiting for her to lie with me.....she took her damn time...lol she loved being a tease......so finally she turned out the light then she lay on top of me...and I kissed her passionately then...she lay on my side...while she looked at me....we could still see each other in the dark...and she put snuggled up close and put my left leg between her legs....she was on fire!! haha.....and we started kissing and talking then kissing again...we talked about how unbelievable our relationship has been...3 days......being so in love...how we are so connected to each other.....I really enjoyed how her hands would wander all over my body and my face....almost so naturally....I never noticed it...but I just felt it :) our kisses became more intense....I could feel her legs sqeeze....so we'd stop and take a breather...then go back to talking.....my hands started to wander.....and lol...so unaturally obvious, i moved my hand slowly down her shoulders...onto her soft ass...then up to her lovely tits.....then she slapped my hand and said "oi what are you doing?" LOL!! damn, couldn't sneak that one by....haha she was so alert....damnit! haha....and she wouldn't let me touch her boobies.....until I later calmed down and told her that I really wanted to out of curiousity....I had felt boobs before but these were.......soooo sensational...that I just felt they were fake....I mean...they were SO REAL! but....too good to be true!! they were perfectly round....well shaped....it was almost unrealistic feeling them up...although I didn't get turned on by this...weird, it was more like a curious thing not a horny guy feel......hmm...so I tell her that they were so nice....mmm.....I miss them :( I miss her too..lol but yeah thats all part of her package.....so yeah we talk about her past.....my past.....we talk about our future together and then she says....she loves me and that she is my futurewife and she falls asleep in my arms....or hmm...I think I was the one who went out first...lol.....too love drunk, I coma'd lol.......well I woke up with her...feeling so good....as if we really did do it! lol....I really had that whole "top of the morning" feeling :D haha......she was sooo happy too.....we were so happy that we made it through our first nite together without any sex :) I am so proud of her for stopping me a couple of times during the night....but I wouldn't have done it anyway, I know I'm a really strong guy when it comes to saying no :) she went to the bathroom to shower again.....I went in after then I got out got...took a crap....but forgot to flush (something that would come back to bite me in the bum later on)got dressed made our bed.....then made hot chocolate and used the left over milk....then she comes out and asks me, why I didn't tell her that her mascarra was runny! lol....she looked like a PANDA :) she was my sexy panda....and I loved her even with runny mascarra...lol silly panda.....we keep talking and her sister walks in and catches us with hot chocolate.....finds my crap in her potty,finds out we drank all the milk.....and is outraged just by everything else (coz Ayla-Jane didn't tell her where she was last night....she was with me) she wanted to kick my ass...i know it..lol I NOW KNOW HOW GOLDIELOCKS felt..lol :P and the big bear was soo unhappy! Ayla-Jane got told off.....then she came back to me....i felt VERY unwelcome so I said....I'm gonna go.....and we did eventually leave.....I walked her to work.......feeling such a sad goodbye feeling.....we get to her store...then we hold each other really tight then...let go and I kiss her and tell her I love her...and then....goodbye :( It hurt to be away from her.....but I was happy I found her :) So....yeah, we still talk to each other....but this was our story..how we met.....our status now is slightly more complicated though...but I think of these 4 days as our wonder moments ^__^ the best night of my life.....and our special moment :) I love her soo much!

My spanish word for today....SEXY PANDA LOL!! its not spanish but its still a word :P