"Cyclone Gene hits Fiji"

"Destruction"
That was the headline in our local daily this morning. Being through a cyclone was quite an ordeal. It was a category 2 cyclone which ravaged through most of the main island moving at 15 Kilometers per hour,claiming 4 lives. A strong wind warning still remains over most parts of the main island. I took some snapshots...of Gene in action:)

"Candlelight Dinner"

I had a candlelight dinner but this was not by choice, the power was down in most parts of the country due to fallen power lines. I had used my laptop for a while but because the battery was low...it too died and as darkness fell....I had dinner by candlelight....not the romantic kind...the survival kind :P lol....it was fun and different. I realized how much I relied on ELECTRICITY and technology. My phone died on me as I was informing my friends of the developments. I am just glad power is back on and I am back to business. I had to close up for 2 days since there was a warning issued.
Keep safe people!

"Living can take years off your life"

I was supposed to watch a movie yesterday but instead I chose not to. My friends ended up visiting me instead and since I live close to the seashore, we decided to take a walk and I took my camera with me....hehe :) I always wanted to take sunset pics but I needed someone who was just as good with photography to take my pic. On our way we talked about many things, but when we got there all we could talk about was the beauty of the sun going down on such a wonderful afternoon :) If only you were there :P I think that there are more beautiful things in life but this was by far one of the most beautiful and relaxing scenes ever! We had so much fun people were watching us as we posed for our sunset pics :) There was quite a fair bit of activity along the seawall which really was interesting to see. We had some people fishing, lots of women jogging...hehe :P lots of men jogging too :( lol. People taking their dogs for a walk, dogs taking their people for a walk....haha It was just awesome! We plan to get out and do it again soon. I don't regret not going to the movies......I watched something better :)

Life is not an easy thing and someone once said "Dying is the easy part, living.....thats the hard part" I think that just being alive for a certain number of years (example 24:P) doesn't make life any easier.....but if we don't try to live our life in the best way possible, and try to make good decisions....constantly, we can end up with problems. But yeah, everyone has problems...(topic came up when we were hanging out) so it is not to say that we will not have problems but we will have fewer problems if we make smart choices. It's not always easy to do that. The pics are so cool :) check them out!

"If you're ignorant, at least you're constantly surprised"

I took the day off today to spend time with my friends and to think. I think too much :P according to a few people who know me very well. I do enjoy thinking because I believe it is a wonderful facet of life. I have been exposed to a lot of viewpoints and a lot more opinions that it really helps me to see what many people are like. I have studied myself and my life in an attempt to be the best I can be :) I have had wonderful support from my friends. I got a call today from my cousin in New Zealand! WOW! :) she just called to say hi.....I was happy to hear her voice. I've never met that part of my family because we live in different parts of the world. I believe that my life is only beginning at 24 :) I turned 24 only 3 days ago and I do feel old and grey :P but I manage....hehe....I realize a change in my life and I want to turn all the mishaps into good things and try and fix the things that are not good. I think that I have been taking the fall for many things that are not my fault. Life isn't fair and it's too bad that we get dealt with bad cards but we do what we can to LIVE. I got to see many things better today....my life has indeed changed in ONE year of living and so much has happened to me to make me OLD :) yes I consider myself old at 24 years....but I still have a long way to live ;) I am happy that my life is enriched with wonderful friends and my loving family!

I loved you with the fire RED....now it's turning BLUE..

Things haven't been so good for some of my friends and for me. I have been through tragic events in my life but I realize that my heartbreak is nothing compared to all the problems other people are facing. Everyone is in truth searching for HAPPINESS, they may deny this fact but I believe this to be true across all facets of humanity. I believe that the only thing that differs between individuals is what they "think" makes them happy. Some search for truth,for answers to satisfy their need to know what is really going on in this world, some search only for their basic needs since they do not have the basics, how can they even begin to be happy? Others search for purpose by trying to make a name for themselves in this world.....the struggle for prominence is only a "human thing" Some search for wealth which would supposedly lead to their comfort and ultimately their happiness.Yet others search for LOVE, I spoke to one such person yesterday and her search for Love seems to have taken her to great ends. That desire is within all of us but for some it is greatly associated with their happiness. I have found Love but I had to cut my losses and escape before my search takes me to a point of no return! I just realized that there are BIGGER things in life than Love....LIFE itself is more precious than Love....I don't believe we can find Love if we don't find meaning in our life first. I had been thinking deeply about many things and I know that with everything in my life, I just need to "have a little faith" and everything will be alright :)

Whatever you are facing in your life....in your struggle to find what makes YOU happy, I wish you well and I hope that you find what it is that you are searching for!

"she said my name"

I called someone special yesterday,we spoke for an hour about many things.....it was the best conversation I've ever had :) but what really surprised me was that she said my name! her voice was very soft and caring. The sweetest thing I've ever heard! I always believed I deserved better people in my life as "close friends" but I didn't realize how true that was until yesterday. I also spoke to her twin :P it was the most beautiful thing in the world to be able to relate to what she believed which is EXACTLY what I believed and when she explained something I already seemed to know what it was that she was trying to say =) I hung up feeling very warm inside...maybe that was because it was warm in my room :P We've had so much heat in the city this week. I've had to walk around half naked in my home...Anyway things are looking up for me and I believe that I have many more things in my life to do and to be satisfied in doing! I have work today......those mean people never take it easy on me:P

"A new beginning"

Since Fiji is placed almost along the international date line, it means that I am one of the first people to see the new year :D

Every year I use resolutions to enhance or to prove myself. This year I have a few business goals....my ideas of expansion mostly.I commit myself to certain changes that will benefit me in some way. I haven't thought of anything but my spiritual health. My physical health hasn't been too good either. I still have a nasty cough and it refuses to go away. I still have some carrots in my garden and I have hope that my life will slowly piece together once I get back to basics.I still have this pain in my side.....but I will endure it as long as I know that my love is not lost! I am happy that I have become more committed to myself which is what I used to be.I still have a dark sadness that has settled over me but I'm slowly washing away the pain.....just like the rain that washes away the dirt on my window ...someone told me life is pain....I believe this to be a half truth. Life is pain but it can also be a beautiful thing :) I have experienced such beauty in my life and I have experienced so much love that I cannot believe that life is ALL pain and no gain....I gained so much from living....and I hope to gain a lot more in my life :) but I also like to share too :P

I'm looking at the publish button so I can hit it at exactly midnight.....that will make this one of the first posts, if not the first post this year :D

bloody hell my time zone was wrong :P oh well...nvm

"red meat is okay...but avoid blue-green meat"

My life and my progress has been halted by certain "developments" I believe I can get back on track but I know it will take a lot more effort to do so. I have been pondering my next few steps very carefully, it starts with an "ending" and a "new beginning" will follow it, the problem is.....the "ending" is dragging on like a woman getting dressed :P I have been unable to work on my new beginnings as yet but I figure I will just go ahead and wait for the ending later. This is not something easy, in fact it is one of the most complex situations since it involves emotions. Human emotion is one of the most complex entities on earth, I think.....it is human emotion that is responsible for the great things in the world but it is also human emotion that destroys most of the good things. I am just allowing myself to heal naturally and allowing time to pick up where I left off and to keep going, to endure all that life is throwing at me :) I feel good about myself for allowing "time" for others to respond to a situation. It is only fair. I do believe I can make a decent come back after this.....I am down but not out! :)

"when I finally got my head together...my body fell apart"

it has been a hard struggle to alleviate the things that hinder my progress....I have got my act together slowly and I am getting better :) I miss my family. It's just me and my bro now...we're taking care of ourselves.....it feels alright.

With the festive mood in the air, I got a gift from one of my valued customers :D He said he appreciates the service.......He is a diplomat and he loves his job and people :) I think he is cool. Well there are many things that have been lagging behind but my workouts are still going...I've ripped myself a good set of abs...hehe.....it's all coming along so well :)

And my carrots.....there's still 1 or 2 left. I will let it grow until it can grow no more.....or I run out of veggies....lol

I have given myself a lot of thinking space....I have also made a new friend :) but I still stay close to my old ones. There is so much I want to do and I am glad to do it. Work is slow as people wind down for their Christmas break. The stores are so capitalizing on this holiday...I bought a water purifying kit yesterday, but I still think I will buy FIJI water...

Anyway this is my $129 bottle of Scotch.........haha I thought it was cheap until my brother told me...."bro, this thing is expensive"....he would know...he's the alco:P...perhaps I'll sell it to him? haha or maybe not...I wanna drink it...it will make me feel expensive...lol......or just drunk :P

"some people say I'm superficial....but thats just on the surface"

Some idiot reported my youtube video so I had to change hosts. Anyway, I am not really a big fan of youtube....I am sad that Nathan is dead but I'm happy that I'm still alive.....I think? :P I have done a lot of working out lately...but my cough makes it hard to stand,just doing my lower abs because it helps with posture and "other things". I had no work yesterday(actually I had work but I didn't go...hehe) I will go and work on my friend C's computer.She hasn't got her data yet(apparently I have now become a data recovery expert of some sort to her...) I will do it, but it's not a priority. I thought I had no more carrots but I was wrong,there were some carrots that the monster didn't eat :P. I bought and awesome MONITOR!! :D A Mitsubishi/NEC Diamond Pro 2070SuperBright. It is soooooo humongus!! I love it to death.......awesome for video/photo/editing and artwork on illustrator and photoshop. OR just watching Heroes and Prison Break....oh and IT'S SOOOOOO BIG!! lol..........I am soooooo not used to having a monitor about the size of my TV! It's amazing.........okay here is a pic...my fingers are long...so that will indicate size...20 inches of pure viewing pleasure!!!!


it's just huge...and everything looks big....haha...I got it at an absolute steal :D under $200

"it is only the beginning"

I still feel a little unsteady but I have been hanging around my good friends :) that gives me comfort. Today is my Medical Examination and I am still sick with this cough thing. My mom pulled out the last of my carrots and she said there was nothing growing anyway :( Things just couldn't be worse for me but I keep a positive attitude...besides things can't get any worse, right? (usually does.....when you say that) anyhoo....I didn't only lose a dear friend I also lost a hero :( He was brave and he had the courage to tell the truth despite what it would cost him....little did he know, it would cost him his life! but he died a brave man and I admire him for that. He makes up for his past "selfishness" in full :)

Nathan....I love you!

"it's complicated"

My life has taken a complicated turn,based on a response by my gf. I just reacted and here I am.......listening to a song that now describes my love life....it's far from over, but I am staying strong. I have been used as a means to an end. I've been cheated and lied to.....I'm just giving up and walking away.....not exactly what I would normally do...BUT ...>>"IT'S COMPLICATED"

"wisdom is proven by application"

A huge span of time has passed since I updated my blog. There were many reasons behind this but the main reason is ME. I wasn't as dedicated, as honest, as decent as I was when I started writing this blog.I have sabotaged my own progress.Circumstances in my life had changed and along with it...me :( I hoped that this change would be for the better....I hoped for progress but instead I was going backward and this fact discouraged me and made me lose sight of my goals to improve myself.Here I am with everything seemingly lost and wasted....trying again to put the pieces of my life back together. I am happier now and I am relieved because I know that certain things in my life need attention. I have neglected part of me that has contributed so much to my personality but in realizing this I also realize the importance of my spirituality.I need to keep trying to do what is right....but sometimes our consciences and our thinking and our reasoning is so warped that we cannot make good solid decisions.So for me there is only one way I know to get back a good conscience :)

Today, I also heard some wisdom from a total stranger and what got to me was the fact that it took a stranger to get through to me....what my family and my friends have been trying to tell me for such a long time! I am going back to my family and friends because today I realized just how much they love and care about me :)

Cheers to Z:)

"Never let the facts get in the way of a good argument"

I've had crappy days,weeks,months and even years.....but they'll be there for me...when the rain starts to pour.....they'll be there for me....like they've been there before.....yeah the people I call my friends:) and a very special friend has been with me throughout this time :) Well I am feeling better these days but now one of my friends is dealing with some heartbreak issues :( it seems like a season of heartbreak for my girlfriend(thats my friend who happens to be a girl..hehe) She has been a good friend to me and now I just feel I need to be there for her. The world throws at us so many things and we just love to catch the good stuff but we also get a lot of crap and bad things...we don't like but I guess we need to deal with it coz it makes us stronger people :)

Thats a pic of moms gerbera...so beautiful:) my carrots can be seen on the bottom right hand corner....well...there is only one or two remaining now :( but......with beautiful flowers like this....it's no wonder mom pulled my carrots out :P